Thankful

So for this post I just want to write about random things that make me happy, the things that make me take a step back and look at the important things in my life. The things that help me see the big picture a little bit better. First off college is hard, and lately I've been spending a lot more time with myself, and just thinking about life. I've been writing a lot, after a stressful, lonely, sad day I just sit down and write everything that I'm feeling. Most of the time it doesn't really make much sense but it helps me see what's really important in my life and what really isn't. I also love going on walks, I find excuses to go walk around campus, just so I can feel the sun on my hair and step on the crunchy leaves and just breathe everything in. I also love going on walks in cemetery's, I know most people probably see that as weird but it reminds me how fleeting life really is,it's a humbling experience. We never know how much time we have here, and we need to really spend time on the important things. I've also spent more time studying my scriptures and thinking about the gospel. This weekend we had stake conference, and it was exactly what I needed. Latley I've been appreciating having the gospel in my life a whole lot more than I think I ever have. I seriously can't say where I would be without it right now, but I know it wouldn't be here. And with everything I've been dealing with lately I know that sometimes the gospel is the only thing that can bring peace and comfort in those times where I really feel like I'm drowning. Our theme for stake conference was "Now therefore give me this mountain.." from Joshua 14:12 a lot of the talks focused on trials and how we need them in our paths to help us see where we're going so we can have goals, and overcome trials. They also talked a lot about the atonement and how we all need it so badly in our lives. One of the speakers (Sister Jorgenson) said something that really hit me she said comparing trials, and sins to holes in a boat "Everyone has holes in their boat, how can we judge someone else just because they are sinking faster than we are? We're all sinking." She talked about the fact that it doesn't matter how big the holes are in our boat or how many holes we have, that fact is that we all have them, and we all need the Savior to save us. I'm so grateful for the time I've had lately to just step back and look at life, being lonely and spending time by yourself may not be the most exciting of times in your life, but I feel like Heavenly Father has used this time to teach me some important things that if I had been out having fun every second I probably would have missed out on. So in a way I'm thankful for this mountain of lonliness that I've been trying to overcome lately, because I haven't been alone, Heavenly Father, and Jesus Christ have been with me every step of the way.

"I believe in Christ; he stands supreme! From him I'll gain my fondest dream; and while I strive through grief and pain, his voice is heard: "Ye shall obtain." I believe in Christ; so come what may, with him I'll stand in that great day. When on this earth he comes again to rule among the sons of men." - I believe in Christ hymn #134